Wednesday, 15th December 2010

Dearest Love,

After 3 weekends with guests, I'm looking forward to the weekend alone with you :)
We've been so busy with our work and all, we've not really had a chance to share with each other.

We're unwinding for the year 2010 and it's been a mild year - in fact, a  bit "bleh", but it was still great because I've had you by my side throughout.

So here's a toast to many, many, many, many, many, many more years together and going through life's experiences together.

I love you!

Always,
Girl

Tuesday, 23 November 2010

Dearest Love,

I'm glad we're both alive and well.
I'm just glad we're together.

I love you.
And do always, always remember your most important promise to me.

Always,
Girl

Wednesday, 25th August 2010

Dearest Love,

Happy 1st Year Anniversary! :)
Time flies, indeed.

You've made it so easy to live with you :)
You've made it so easy to laugh with you (and at you :P)
You've made it so easy to fall in love with you - all the time.

Thank you for loving me. And you're most welcomed for loving you :)

Me and You. Just Us Two. We have a long way more to go - and hopefully, with lots and lots of laughs.

I love You.

Always,
Your Girl

p/s : Thank you for the gift :) It's such a nice surprise!! I'll snowball yours. :)

Monday, 9th August 2010

Dearest Love,

You remember the night we had that 30-hours without electricity problem? The annoying "Welcome To Cambodia" factor?

I remember for two things - how hot it was and how do people survive these days without electricity.
And I remember it for how you sat up in bed and used the blanket to fan me to sleep even though you were sweating like a pig yourself. I was really very touched by that, you know.

And I fell in love with you yet again.

Thank you for making it bearable - even though things seem miserable.

Love Always,
Girl

Wednesday, 4th August 2010

Dearest Love,

You're reliable.
And I thank you for that.

Love,
Girl

p/s : I still love hearing the sound of your laughter - especially when we watch comedies together :)

Thursday, 15th July 2010

Dearest Love,

Today marks 2 years that we've been in Cambodia.
It had been tough, I know. Sometimes good, mostly not-so-good.
But thank you for being here with me.

Can't say it enough. A small mention here :)
Most importantly - for providing me with the laughs and keeping me sane and straight.

I love you.

Always
Girl

Tuesday, 2nd February 2010

Dearest Love,

I'm feeling so, so, so awful right now.
You are in the midst of getting blood and urine tests for suspicion of liver failure, hepatitis, jaundice or whatever it is that has something to do with the liver. Your eyes have turned yellow and I've googled some information and all your symptoms seem to point to liver failure. I am hoping it is merely hepatitis..... not that hepatitis is any better, but the lesser of the evils listed.

I've realised I've been such a terrible, terrible person. And to add on to that, a  terrible, terrible wife.
While we were in Bangkok, I had no idea what was wrong with you and I kept saying you were "Raymond"... and I was upset that you hadn't been able to enjoy the trip and food (more like I didn't want to get fat by myself...!) .... and oh, Love..... I am so horrible! I would go back to Bangkok and make it a damn miserable trip if I have to, if only nothing was wrong with you!

I think more to that.... You have always been living up to your vows...and I've been so spoilt by you... you've always taken care of me, you've always been the one taking care of plans for trips and all that, ...... and  I got lost for abit. And as a result, I forgot my vows to you.

I had vowed to take care of you and to learn how best to take care of you. All I did was try to feed you with some silly medication - which of course, was all the wrong ones..... which didn't help you. Oh God, Love... I'm a terrible, terrible person! :( I promise this will change.

I guess... sometimes, it is knowing the other person very well  too... and I guess, perhaps, I may not know you as well as I thought I did. Sometimes, we take things for granted. You and I, we're different - at times, both ends of the extreme. I've always liked living my life a bit closer to the edge.... (ala my Dad's style)... and I sometimes do not heed signs - or don't read them very well - especially when it says "Danger Ahead" :P Like the time I raced with a cracked rib.... or you know, eating snails by the roadside when I had diarrhoe.... I guess, I take the motto of Making Each Day Count a bit too far.....  You, on the other hand... have always been very sensitive to every little bit of changes your body goes through and you heed them........ and if you can't, you don't really push it......  and I guess.... we should look at it as a balance for the both of us. We need to find our middle ground.

I've been feeling so awful. I fear...... losing you. I admit - I don't think I can live my life, without you by my side. (and this blog would be pointless if that happened!!) .... I can't imagine and it's scary imagining it. I don't want money, richess, travel the world, whatever it may be... I just want you by my side and laughing together as we always, always do.

I will take care of you. Forever. Please get well.

Girl

Wednesday, 13th January 2010

Dearest Love,

Very nice of you to wait for me today for our usual morning convoy. Usually, you would zoom off without me!

I want to say thank you - for making me smile so much. That could be a reason I am putting on weight - because I am generally - rather happy :)

I smile when I think of you :
- dancing your silly dance, the way you dance
- your grandfather undies
- when you laugh watching slapstick comedies
- try to seduce me with sexy dance moves
- i am trying to bite you
- spank! spank!
- when i imagine you saying "haiya"...
- shaping your eyebrows :) :)
- tap! tap! tap! ;>
- kiss me and hug me in the mornings.....

Thank you for giving me lots of reasons to smile in a day. I wonder if I do the same for you!

I love you :)
Girl

Friday, 1st January 2010

Dearest Love,

Happy New Year. It is the first New Year for us as husband & wife. It is also the first day of the new decade.

And I am having a mother of all hangover. But what I will always, always recall, and emblazon in my memory is how you had been so patient, so loving, taking care of a drunkard wife on New Year's eve. Horrifyingly, I cannot recall most of what happened last night.

I remember our very tasty home-cooked porridge meal, of course. The first NY's eve meal that I had in a long long time that is home-cooked and so cheap at that! But we were both so happy eating it. That felt good.

I also remember FCC and then Riverhouse. The last thing I recall was watching swimming on TV at the Riverhouse. The rest, I don't. And it must not have been easy, as according to you, I sounded like I was a nutcase!

I had fallen in love all over again with you today. I don't know how to say it - but how you really took care of me and still kissed me and loved me, despite seeing me, possibly in the worst condition ever of my life.... - really made my heart melt. Melt a thousand times over :)

I just want to say thank you, thank you, thank you. I wouldn't know what to do without you in my life ever. Please don't let me even try.

Well, now it is time to have the first "ahem" session of the decade for us :)

I love you. Always.

Your Girl

Friday, 4 November 2009

Dearest Love,

How is it possible.... that I fall in love with you more and more each day? Ok.. Ok... maybe not each day... but most of the days. Yea, some days, it is just a bored routine..... but there are moments, which certainly makes me..... you know, feel so damn lucky that we are together!!

Last night, I had felt so miserable! With the food poisoning.... I don't know what happened. I was ok, and then I felt a little off when we met up for snacks with our friends. And when I got home, midway through cooking for you, I just felt a terrible pain in my tummy and I had to go to the toilet! After that, it was all hell. I vomitted and my whole body was cold and aching and just felt plainly miserable.

I was praying that it wasn't going to be like the last food poisoning I had. Remember? That was a really bad one. Remember how you said you would go down to Happy Pizza to get me a happy cigarette to help relieve me of my pain? That is just too hilarious. A happy cigarette indeed! I can still remember your expression! You look like you were serious - which made it even funnier!!!! But of course, I was in too much pain to laugh at that time.

Anyway, thank God it was only mild food poisoning. Nothing some charcoal pills couldn't stop! I still feel a bit nauseated today, but I'm alright. I just don't want it to ruin our weekends, you know? The weekends are so far apart and so short! Speaking of - time with you is always short :(

I remember all the times that I had been ill, you had always taken care of me. Whether it was from having too much to drink (somebody spiked my drink! Thank God you were with me!), or food poisoning or the flu.... I mean, it's not like you have the best methods to take care of me as a sick patient should be taken care of, but you are just there, and you make sure I am well, and you just care. You know? That helps a lot for me emotionally and if I am emotionally alright, my body will generally follow that direction :) Do you know what I mean? I told you I am a big baby when I feel ill and miserable.... and you just spoil me silly :) I love it!

Now that I am reflecting on "all the times".... I can't help but know how lucky I am to have you by my side. Thanks also for always removing the very yucky and ewe-factor hairs from the toilet hole..... !! You know, I really hate those stuff : P My friend told me - you doing that is called "LOVE". :)

What would I do without you, love???

I can't wait to have dinner with you tonight.

I love you.
Girl

p/s : I love watching you and hearing you laugh. You have a very contagious laughter, did you know that? At least to me. It brightens me up :)

Friday, 27 November 2009

Dearest Love,

I figured, I had to tell you about this blog instead of waiting for me to die before you get to read them is.... much better. Because in life, you just never know what will happen!

And the good thing about this blog is that I don't necessarily have to keep my letters long. I can make it short, make it random, make it whatever I want to tell you or remind you when I am long gone.

You know, I'm not sure if you noticed - every morning, when you go to work, since we moved to the new apartment on the riverfront (12th April 2009), I've always made it a point to "go to work" with you. How? Well, aside from our morning ritual of kissing bye-bye at the parking lot gate........ then we get into our own vehicles (me in my beat-up junk of a Toyota and you in your motodop Daelim)... Firstly, I will wait for you at the parking lot gate..... and then when I see you approaching on your bike from my rearview mirror, I turn out onto Sothearos Blvd. I go at 10km/hour...... just so that I can drive alongside you, or else at least to be able to see you a little ahead of me..... sometimes, we honk at each other to do a little wave.. or you will make the silly "peace" sign.... or I will stick out my tongue at you........ anyway, onwards we go, down Sothearos Blvd... until you turn right into Sihanouk Blvd. and I head on straight.

I don't actually know why I do it. It's just nice for me. And when I see you turn right, I always say a prayer - (ok, sometimes, I forget) - that you will be safe, you will ride safe and come back to me in one piece......

And you always do. Because you promised me that you will live longer than me :) And I believe you will do everything you can to keep that promise.

Always,
Girl

Thursday, 26 November 2009

Dearest Love,

I just have to write today :) Sudden inspiration.

You know how since you started your football and you have games every Wednesday nights and I would be asleep by the time you come back? It's nice that when you get into bed, you search for my lips and you kiss them and you snuggle closer to me and you hug me and fall asleep that way yourself :) Everytime you do that, ok, well, most of the time when you do that, you stir me awake.... and even though most everything else is a blur, I can only recognize you doing that to me. And it is comforting and soothing all at the same time. So, thank you, Love. It's nice.

Last night, I was having this fabulous dream of being a CSI. I was breaking a difficult case. Or in the middle of it, I think. And it was dark and there was all this blood. It must've been hot and stuffy in my dream, because I was sweating - as according to you. You woke me up, when you brushed my hair back with your hands..... and you must've noticed me sweating.... and you checked my body temperature on my forehead.... and you went to switch on the fan.... made sure I was comfy.... and hugged me to sleep.

I was in the reverie of my CSI dream.... everything was a blur and you know how sometimes, when you're dreaming and you're half awake and there's a really blurred line between reality and dream? And you brushing me, and hugging me and checking on me..... they seemed so surreal at those moments. BUT still comforting.

And of course, I woke up and re-confirmed the "events" of the night before with you. And it's true! You really did all that!

You're the sweetest.

Always,
Girl

Wednesday, 25 November 2009

Dearest Love,

It is 37 months and 4 days..... since we got together.
Have you been happy enough since then?
I guess, it's only normal to know that things could be better, but I'm not complaining about the now.

If anyone were to ask me the question - what is it about YOU that's got me love-struck?
I think it is the fact that you always enjoy making me laugh. And while I know you endeavour to do so on a daily basis, it seems so natural and so effortless. And having my daily dosage of laughter is absolutely the best thing in my life :)

And I have to thank you also, for the relentless love and support you have given me thus far. You know, whatever I seek out to do, whatever I think I want to do, you have never once told me "No" or said anything negative at all. None! And I truly appreciate that. It's like, I have the guts to take some risks, but you are the strength that gives me the courage to make the leap. To spread my wings and fly.... whilst I am the idiotic balloon huffing and puffing up in the air, you are the anchor that keeps me grounded, that keeps me from flying away into the oblivion.

It's funny - even something as simple as me trying to be a so-called DJ on Facebook. You have been a fan and you tell me it's a great idea. Even though, there are possibly some who think it an idiotic waste of time! Or when I did my first triathlon, you were there cheering me. And then, you took it a step further and joined me in the race (remember how you nearly drowned in your first race??) Or when I am struggling to find a solution for my businesses and you come up with just about the most brilliant idea..........

I think our characters are pretty different. You're quiet, I can be pretty loud. You're steady and I'm restless. You're patient, I'm definitely not. You lead quietly, I lead ... bossily. I guess, to the rest of the world, it always seem like you are two steps behind me - the man behind the power-woman. If only they knew - how we played the tag-team, the "good cop-bad cop" to perfection....... but it doesn't matter, right, love?

Because you know and I know... that you ... are MY man. In more ways than one. I really would be lost without you. Just imagine that balloon flying off uncontrollably into the skies, without an anchor.

I am proud of you and I stand proud next to you. I love you.

Girl

Monday, 16th November 2009

Dearest Love,

Today, I created a blog to store the love letters that I will write to you. Maybe you will get to read them all, one day - when I am no longer around.

I guess I am a stickler for all things romantic and sentimental. You know that already.
Over the years that we have been together - pre-wedding and post-wedding, we've written thousands and thousands of emails to each other. And of course, letters too. But I realised, of late, those romantic letters have not just dwindled, they've disappeared! Which is why, I got this brilliant idea to create a blog - which will have all the love letters I will begin writing again for you, stored in it :) It's perfect - the blogsite will be like a,..... keeper of letters! :)

Way before Nicholas Sparks wrote The Notebook, long before they made PS I Love You into a movie, I've already always dreamt of there being a day, one day, that the person I love will be sitting down in his little rocking chair in the garden, a cup of hot tea brewing on the coffee table and him - the love of my life, reading each and every letter that I had written for him. Just that, those brilliant romance writers articulated it faster and better :)

So, this first introduction letter - not so romantic. It is after all, an introduction :)
I'll keep it brief and short. Everytime I am inspired to write to you, I will.

Love,
Girl